Temptation wins

I really can't stand myself, but I just can't help to slack. Haix. Since the start of the year, I've been really pissed with myself, everything and anything. It's not a long term pms or whatever, but it's just that this year nothing's going on well.

It's sad to see everyone around me emo-ing. Nevertheless, it does affect me even though I don't emo. Everything just doesn't fall into place. It's not as if you worked hard it will fall into place, everything is like that.

Who understands how much time and effort you put into something. It's a lie when people out there say that it's the process that matters. How many actually give a heck about what's the process, when all the things that are cared for is the end results. It's always a disappointment when your hardwork doesn't get recognised, the feeling is just shitty. The result is all that defines you as a winner or a loser.

I'm numb with everything. Maybe in the end, I'll just teared without knowing what are the tears for. It's a long and twisted path to the destiny of freedom, but I can see that by the time I reached what I've longed for all the time, it's gonna be yet another regret.

Let's just set aside all the stress and kiss away all troubles. It's okay that people don't recognise our hardwork, it's okay that our hardwork doesn't get paid off, it's just each other's support that matters the most. :D

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