chori chori ham gori se!

title: surreality
date: Saturday, August 22, 2009
time:11:51 PM

Many times, I find it cliche to reiterate what I did for the whole day on my blog, and the worse part is when the day is rather mundane and boring. Well, today is one of the mundane and boring days. It's kinda like no highlights at all, and that's what you get especially the killer EOYs are nearing, when doing anything apart from studying makes you feel guilty at all means.

I am a dreamer, somehow a contradictory person with loads of fat hopes yet always sticking to reality because I can't bear the consequences. There's times when I dream of what I hope but of course it will never happen :X Somehow my parents believe that I'm independent enough when I'm seriously not, I'm not blaming them for that but it just makes me feel helpless when I face problems and it's hard for them to understand GEEZ.

Sometimes, when walking home alone, happy memories will flood my mind and I will start smiling to myself, which I think those strangers will think I am some lunatic. It's indeed hard to control yourself from smiling when all these thoughts come along and I have to bite my lips pretty hard to make it less obvious -.-

I seriously wonder what's wrong with me. I think the person that I never understand is none other than myself. I don't know what I want :( Somehow, even after 4 years of secondary school education, I still can vividly remember myself in primary school and I still feel that I'm in primary school. It's definitely not the problem of my height that makes me feel this way, but of course I don't understand why too. Maybe time is passing by too quickly.

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